This and That

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To my dearest sister: Thank you. I am fine now. In fact, got over the anger within a couple hours of writing my last entry. It's really nothing actually. I was making a mountain out of a mole hill and everything is now sorted out. Will be going on the Taiwan trip with G for sure. And the main reason is that I believe we have learn to live with each other. After all, we are heading over to US for our work training together. And that is easily half a year or more. I rather that we sort out our differences on our holidays than live in torment when we are in States. Both of us are compromising people. I'm sure things will work out fine. We may not be the best of travelling buddies, but at least we know how to work together and get the best out of things.

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One week of zuobo at work went by. Surprisingly, it went by quite quickly. Realised that the more I zuobo, the sicklier I become. An annoying headache like feeling tortured me for quite a few days. It wasn't really painful, just annoying. Made me very lethargic. Kept thinking that I needed rest, hence ended up sleeping at work, only to feel even more lethargic. Even a whole night sleep didn't seem to get rid of it. Only to realise that I was suffering from lack of activity. Actually needed to get up and walk around, do something. Make my brain work a bit and distract myself from the annoyance, then will the irritating feeling go away. Guess I can label it as 'zuobo syndrome'. Hence, I am determined that for the coming week, I will make myself useful. Must get into the lab and do something. If not, at least finish reading my LOTR. I've taken way too long to finish it - like 2 years? Haa.

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Just finish a brilliant book yesterday - Tuesdays with Morrie. I'm sure most of you have heard of it, probably read it and agree that it's a brillant book. To me, a book that touches me (this one had me crying buckets) or one that makes me unwilling to put it down is a good book. Lessons learnt from the book are invaluable. So true. So heartfelt. It reminded me that I have been too caught up in my own life, and forgotten those I love. In particular, my grandma. Haven't visited her for weeks. Feeling guilty. Hence, I resolved to visit her at least fornightly until I leave for US. We love our family, but often it's only in our hearts. Think we need to put forth some actions and make sure our loved ones feel it. I may not be able to communicate with my grandma very well due to my limited Hokkien. But by just being there, massaging her legs and listening, I'm sure is more than enough. If you haven't read the book, please do. Maybe then, you would also realise that you need to reprioritise your life with those you love.

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Realised that a couple of my friends had ventured into the music industry. I had performed at a concert with both of them a few years back. One of them is N, he's now a member of the J3 band in the Superband competition. Another J, well, too bad for him, for he just got eliminated from the Singapore idol competion. Both of them pursued their interests with passion and even made a living out of it. Think that it is great. The notion that art can't feed one properly is still very much true in local context. One probably needs to struggle for years before getting a big break. However, they defied odds and made it thus far. I rememeber N used to be a "jiak gan dang". But his mandarin now has improved tremendously, even writing chinese lyrics. Hence, it's not hard to see the amount of effort he had put in. Seeing them, I wonder if I have the courage to be like them. I love singing too. But realise I can't for I don't have as much faith in myself. Oh well, I am contended to sing in the comforts of my home or ktv lounge. Wish both of them all the best in their pursue of passion.