I'm Not A City Girl

Went for a farm visit today with MN. We visited Hay Dairy Farm at Lim Chu Kang. It's a dairy goat farm, producing fresh goat's milk daily. Contrary to what most people think, goats and goats milk don't actually have the "sao1" smell. Apparently, that only happens if the male goat tries to mate the female during the milking process. We bought a bottle of milk and shared, it's quite alright really. Very rich, since it's fresh milk.

Now, we went to the farm via public transport. Lim Chu Lang isn't exactly the most accessible place in Singapore, farms we wanted to visit are like miles apart (tried searching for a bull frog farm... but gave up). The 2 of us were like weirdos in the area. All the drivers who pass us would stare and prob think: "What are those 2 doing? Walking around Lim Chu Kang on their own. Crazy."

Now, I actually enjoyed the walk. Even though we were heading nowhere, I enjoyed being near the nature, walking along a ghostless path with greenery on either side. We were like miles from civilisation, yet still in Singapore. The tranquility was amazing. Felt so at ease, so carefree. Nothing in my head, nothing on my mind. I was at peace.

On our way back, as the bus turns into Choa Chu Kang housing estate, my heart dropped. Suddenly realised I'm back in the city, where everyone is busy, where it's hard to find people slowing down and appreciate simple things in life. Felt heavy-hearted. Felt out of place. Felt that I need to get away, want to return to that tranquility I just experienced, want to feel at peace again.

In the end, realise it's a matter of lifestyle. I'm not a city girl despite having live in Singapore all my life. I have a feeling that when I'm old, say maybe in my late 30s or 40s, I will want to move and live in a country where everything moves slowly. Maybe Laos, maybe Chiangmai. I won't leave Singapore permanently, it's my home forever. But I guess I do wish for a simpler and slower pace of life. I don't need all the luxuries and materialistic stuff. As long as I have enough to eat, a roof over my head, be connected to my family and friends, I will be happy - I believe.