My DNA

My Personal Dna Report

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War Achievements

Spot the differences contest. If you can't see, better go visit the optician. Hee.

Maybe this is clearer.

Huh? What happened? Well. Went in-line skating yesterday with a couple of friends. And usual clumsy me, can't seem to learn from my mistakes either. Keep falling backwards, onto my bum. Normal reflex had me supporting the fall with my hand, hence kind of ended up spraining and bruising the left thumb. The photos were taken today, already had one day of rest. The swelling was quite bad yesterday , but I'm much better now. The thumb is much more mobile. It's just that the bruising looks quite gross. Haa. But no worries, it will heal in no time. My friend ask me if I would continue to blade - Of course! After all the suffering I had to endure, I must conquer it! Can't let my thumb injure for nothing right!? Hee.

Been on leave these few days. Clearing my leave. Must say that it's really enjoyable. Having the option to stay home and rest, or go out and have fun (and injure myself!) when I should have been in the office. Haa. Going for treetop walk on Tuesday! Yeah! Stay tune! Hopefully can capture some photos of birds or monkeys in the canopy!

This and That

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To my dearest sister: Thank you. I am fine now. In fact, got over the anger within a couple hours of writing my last entry. It's really nothing actually. I was making a mountain out of a mole hill and everything is now sorted out. Will be going on the Taiwan trip with G for sure. And the main reason is that I believe we have learn to live with each other. After all, we are heading over to US for our work training together. And that is easily half a year or more. I rather that we sort out our differences on our holidays than live in torment when we are in States. Both of us are compromising people. I'm sure things will work out fine. We may not be the best of travelling buddies, but at least we know how to work together and get the best out of things.

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One week of zuobo at work went by. Surprisingly, it went by quite quickly. Realised that the more I zuobo, the sicklier I become. An annoying headache like feeling tortured me for quite a few days. It wasn't really painful, just annoying. Made me very lethargic. Kept thinking that I needed rest, hence ended up sleeping at work, only to feel even more lethargic. Even a whole night sleep didn't seem to get rid of it. Only to realise that I was suffering from lack of activity. Actually needed to get up and walk around, do something. Make my brain work a bit and distract myself from the annoyance, then will the irritating feeling go away. Guess I can label it as 'zuobo syndrome'. Hence, I am determined that for the coming week, I will make myself useful. Must get into the lab and do something. If not, at least finish reading my LOTR. I've taken way too long to finish it - like 2 years? Haa.

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Just finish a brilliant book yesterday - Tuesdays with Morrie. I'm sure most of you have heard of it, probably read it and agree that it's a brillant book. To me, a book that touches me (this one had me crying buckets) or one that makes me unwilling to put it down is a good book. Lessons learnt from the book are invaluable. So true. So heartfelt. It reminded me that I have been too caught up in my own life, and forgotten those I love. In particular, my grandma. Haven't visited her for weeks. Feeling guilty. Hence, I resolved to visit her at least fornightly until I leave for US. We love our family, but often it's only in our hearts. Think we need to put forth some actions and make sure our loved ones feel it. I may not be able to communicate with my grandma very well due to my limited Hokkien. But by just being there, massaging her legs and listening, I'm sure is more than enough. If you haven't read the book, please do. Maybe then, you would also realise that you need to reprioritise your life with those you love.

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Realised that a couple of my friends had ventured into the music industry. I had performed at a concert with both of them a few years back. One of them is N, he's now a member of the J3 band in the Superband competition. Another J, well, too bad for him, for he just got eliminated from the Singapore idol competion. Both of them pursued their interests with passion and even made a living out of it. Think that it is great. The notion that art can't feed one properly is still very much true in local context. One probably needs to struggle for years before getting a big break. However, they defied odds and made it thus far. I rememeber N used to be a "jiak gan dang". But his mandarin now has improved tremendously, even writing chinese lyrics. Hence, it's not hard to see the amount of effort he had put in. Seeing them, I wonder if I have the courage to be like them. I love singing too. But realise I can't for I don't have as much faith in myself. Oh well, I am contended to sing in the comforts of my home or ktv lounge. Wish both of them all the best in their pursue of passion.

Resent

I am fuming. I am resenting. I am angry at myself for not being decisive. I am angry at myself for giving in to others. I am angry at myself for being stingy. But I can't help it.
I am fuming. I am resenting. I know my resentment will go away in a couple of days. But I can't help feeling angry now.
I am fuming. I am resenting. Though I know being angry and resenting doesn't help in anyway, I can't help but wish to use the word 'hate'.
I am fuming. I am resenting. I wish I hadn't been so compromising and place hopes on others, only to be disappointed in the end.
I am fuming. I am resenting. I wish that I can SCREAM my lungs out now.

End and Wondering

My internship is coming to an end in another 3 weeks - 18 days to be exact. Pretty much decided on my 去向. Taken up an offer from my director to work in a cell therapy facility - doing stem cell culture and documentation work. Good thing about this is that there's an overseas training stint in the US for at least half a year. Should head over around Oct/Nov. Of course, there's a bond involved. So basically, the next three years of my life is pretty much sorted.

However, the immediate 1 mth and 3 weeks are a lost. There's nothing to do at all till the end of the internship. For the first time, I am complaining about having nothing to do!! Haa. Can't believe it really. Won't start work till 1st Aug. Hence, will be taking a month break from work as I desperately need to get out of SG. The travel bug is swarming in my head.

July travel isn't the best time of the year. Many countries in Asia suffer from monsoon. Other countries are either too hot or too expensive to travel. Another problem is travel buddy. Travelling alone isn't very cheap. Having another person along will help share the cost and fight the loneliness. But of course, travelling with another does bring its fair share of troubles like disagreement in the destinations, budget etc.

Decided on Taiwan for my holiday. Initially, suppose to go with another 2 colleagues - G n W. But now, W says that she needs to study for GRE, hence backing out. G, well, I went Thailand with her last Nov. It was not the best trip I had, but neither the worst. Could still travel together, but I am feeling a bit apprehensive. Will it turn out like last time? Last trip, was only 10 days, this is 18 days! I really wonder.

Alternatively, I could of course travel on my own. It's not as if I've never done that. But somehow, I dun feel like going to Taiwan alone. It's so hard finding a suitable travel companion. I need someone who's interested in nature, culture. I need someone who would enjoy outdoor activities and be game enough to try all kinds of stuff. I need someone as stingy as me!