At Crossroads.. Yet again
Somehow I have to go through this once every year since I graduated in 2005. It's the same feeling of not knowing what to do, how to do, what I want in life all over again. Thought that I would be happy in this job, been great for almost a whole year. But alas, good things don't last long. But I am still thankful for it, for all the opportunities it gave me during the amazing 6 months in the US.
Anyway, starting to be troubled about my next step in life again. This is because there's been lots of changes at work. A big pharma is likely leasing/buying our place and we have to move out of the original space, hence wasting a whole year's effort. All this uncertainty is making me rethink my options. Took up this job cos I liked the prospect that I will be involved in the fore-front of medical developments in Singapore and that there is great sense of ownership for being in the project right from the start. But with the pharma taking over, we will just end up as another replica of their many other manufacturing sites in other countries. Everything is dictated, just copy and follow. I don't like that.
As such, I am now starting to look at alternatives. But it's immensely difficult. I think I've found an industry that I'm keen in. I know I want to be in the medical and health care field. I like to know that my work will directly or indirectly help someone in need. But I'm not a doctor or a nurse. Not that it hasn't cross my mind to be one, but I doubt I have the abilities to survive medical school. Also, I still like be involved in research, I still love learning about the science. A new promising treatment, an alternative drug etc. Hence I think a job relating to clinical research is suitable for me. But what aspects of clinical research? That's a question I've been trying to find answers to... Singapore isn't the best place for such work and yet I'm stuck here for 2 years due to visa regulations. It's tiring finding out all these things... To study? Study where? Study what? To work? Work where? What job? Too many questions... I'm lost all over again.
Anyway, starting to be troubled about my next step in life again. This is because there's been lots of changes at work. A big pharma is likely leasing/buying our place and we have to move out of the original space, hence wasting a whole year's effort. All this uncertainty is making me rethink my options. Took up this job cos I liked the prospect that I will be involved in the fore-front of medical developments in Singapore and that there is great sense of ownership for being in the project right from the start. But with the pharma taking over, we will just end up as another replica of their many other manufacturing sites in other countries. Everything is dictated, just copy and follow. I don't like that.
As such, I am now starting to look at alternatives. But it's immensely difficult. I think I've found an industry that I'm keen in. I know I want to be in the medical and health care field. I like to know that my work will directly or indirectly help someone in need. But I'm not a doctor or a nurse. Not that it hasn't cross my mind to be one, but I doubt I have the abilities to survive medical school. Also, I still like be involved in research, I still love learning about the science. A new promising treatment, an alternative drug etc. Hence I think a job relating to clinical research is suitable for me. But what aspects of clinical research? That's a question I've been trying to find answers to... Singapore isn't the best place for such work and yet I'm stuck here for 2 years due to visa regulations. It's tiring finding out all these things... To study? Study where? Study what? To work? Work where? What job? Too many questions... I'm lost all over again.
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