Bad Week

This has been a rather horrible week. Nothing seems to be going right. Be it my health, work or simply how I'm feeling . Sigh...

Health wise - been down with flu since Saturday. It progressively got worse.. Think yesterday was the peak, feeling slightly better today, no more runny nose at least. But damn, the throat is itchy. My voice still sounds super "sexy", super low and husky, or should I say.. rusty.

Work - Nothing is going right.. Well almost nothing. My cells got contaminated consecutively, not sure what's wrong. Suspected to be my media - culture solution used to grow the cells, but yet it appears alright. Another possibility could be my technique of course, getting careless with my steps (as commented by my mentor). Without my cells, I can't progress in my work. Have already been very stagnant in my work for like weeks or rather months... Feeling rather useless actually. Very demoralising... There isn't much time left for my research, suppose to end in December, which is just slightly more than a month away. Sigh. Maybe the only good sign is of a new protocol that I tried, adapted from a journal. This method worked very well, so well that my previous one (which I designed from scratch) pales in comparison. Feels like I have wasted months of effort, trying something that is so useless... Why didn't I discover the paper right from the start. Argh..

Mood - Been in the blues for the past few days. Think it's a result of all the negative factors like flu, work and it happens to be the time of the month too... Just feel so unmotivated, rather depressed, like nothing is going right.. To make matters worst.. past few days, the weather was a gloomy one - overcast skies all day. Today's a bright clear day, but the sunlight can't seem to chase away the gloom that has collected over the past few days. Harry Potter did nothing to cheer me up. I'm just feeling so down. I really hope that all these negative factors will be gone soon, that all these bad luck is just a phase.

I'm crying without rhyme or reason, and I can't help it. How I wish I can yell out all my frustration.. but alas I'm stuck in the office now. What's wrong with me? Why do I feel so lousy!?!? Why??

I don't know what I'm talking about already. I guess I just want to cry my eyes and heart out and fall off to sleep. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. But sadly, I still have to face 11hrs and 20mins more of today.