Showy

Came back from a Christmas party at Biopolis. A few colleagues had come together to present a musical item. The lead singer was a classically trained singer, so performed quite well. Well, one of the best items there was. Anyway, on the way back, W asked me again to perform for next year's company dinner. I said again because he has asked before and I rejected. This time round, he mentioned something that got me thinking. Part of the conversation went something like this.

W: Don't you have the urge to perform?

Me: No. Do I look like the showy sort?

W: A bit.

Me: Thanx a lot loh.

Now, initially I was a bit taken aback. Never thought of myself as the showy sort. But W's words kind of joted me to think.

I guess I am showy. I enjoying singing, and very often would be singing softly. I don't mind others hear me sing. In fact, frankly speaking, I wish for them to hear cos I know that my singing is quite alright! I guess this is being showy. Just not the loud showy kind, but more subduded, more reserve, with elements of being paiseh, not wanting others to think that I am showy!! And also, I'm afraid to make a fool of myself should I go out of tune or miss the beat or forget the lyrics.

Now, having realised that I always have that ai4 xian4 streak in me, I am wondering if I should perform on my company's dinner. For W to ask me to perform, he must have some faith in me? Or at least think that I am good enough? Though I've never really sang properly in front of him before, just my usual soft soft singing in his car. Also, it's all in the name of fun, shouldn't I be more sporting?

A bigger issue will be what can I sing on such a function? It's a rather casual company dinner by the beach. I have to sing English songs, which I don't know many. I don't want to sing love songs cos that just seem so inappropriate. The song must not be too slow, if not will be very anti-climax. I can't sing jazz. I don't want to do a duet with my colleague, whom I find a tat annoying. =P I really don't know what song I can sing!

If anyone has any good suggestion, do let me know. If there's really a suitable song, and if W asked me again, maybe I will agree to do a number!